The Tao doesn’t care, as it is merely a Way.  But how to walk this path?  Motherhood, survival, employment–all handled.  Now time shrinks and looms simultaneously.  Passions dry up like a puddle in a drought.  And living a life based on demands and passions now seems a withering legacy.

Helping others has been my default motivation.  I am forced these days to re-think that urge–is it for me, or them, and what about me?  Tiresome thoughts that trip me into escapism.  I just don’t have the muscle build-up for goals, never had the training, am ok with the end of the game, not keeping score.  Much.

So today I release all reins on how I am supposed to be, feel, what I’m supposed to do and let my God Nose–God Knows–lead the way.  I trust Her, I love Her, I lean on Her as my Divine Purpose.  Besides that, Her giggle entices me.