I toss between them some days.  Frustrated that things don’t go my way–not even sure what my “way” is on the human scale.  I don’t do much preplanning along those lines since I know the universe is in natural organized chaos–completely beyond my understanding. 

Then reverence for all things, every moment, each precious person, action and thing allows me to feel like being on this planet was a reward and a gift I begged for.  All confusion and unease is merely a color of this here and now.

Allowing these two energies to co-exist is like having a god and believing in the Tao at the same time.  My personal Dear One meets me on the human scale with compassion, comfort and kindness.  She is near me, behind me, embracing me whenever I ask for that awareness.

However, the Tao is bigger than my personal god, it is the flow of all seasons, cycles and cosmos.  Perhaps there is a god beyond that, but there will be a flow behind that god.

Luckily, I am a human and spirit, so I can choose either thought to soothe my day.  The Dear One holds me as I flow along the river Way of the Tao.