Feeling quite human today.  That is, face to face with bad acting.  Or rather, acting badly.  The Taoists say to expect it.  The 12 steps uses it for improvement. I guess the 10 commandments, eightfold path and Torah wouldn’t be needed unless we stumbled, yelled, slipped, cheated or stole.

What is a bad man but a good man’s job, says the Tao.  Well, I suppose I should find a good person to make a job out of me.  I yelled at a co-worker the other day, and she called me on it.  Sure I had reasons–she continued to do something I pointed out to her–and she admitted–wasn’t right.  Oh well.  Now my anger is out there for people to point at–as they have done before and as I have humiliated myself.

Like a baby learning to walk, I sit there from a sudden fall on the floor and wail.  And pick myself up again to totter drunk-like staggerig across the room.  But when I was a kid my mom was there cooing for me. 

Perhaps here is the time once again that I see, hear and feel my Dear One smiling at me, loving me despite my anger and frustration, as She waves to me across this day, encouraging me to know that I am here and now being merely human as best I can.  I look up today and keep Her smile in my heart.