I wonder if I’m isolating or taking time for myself.
I wonder if I’m crazy.
I wonder if I’ll ever want to make new friends again–or keep the old.
I wonder if I’ll ever want to talk on the phone for hours like I used to.
I wonder if I’m bad because I’m not grateful every moment for all I have.

I wonder if I’ll outlive my kids.
I wonder if I’ll be in a car accident.
I wonder if there’ll be an earthquake or tsunami here.
I wonder how I’ll die.

I wonder if the Divine thinks of me at all.
I wonder what it would be like to fly with my body through the air like an eagle.
I wonder if anyone ever reads this besides spammers.

What I’ll not wonder about today is that when I lean on the Divine, I do feel wonderful.  I am reminded that just because I wonder, and wander, I am not lost.  I am safe in Her arms.