I’m free to be me, but that shifts constantly.  And my feelings and beliefs plague me with stories about what I am, what I do, how I should be.  Setting all this aside is not an easy task.

The Bhagavad Gita says: “The wise are ever
satisfied…Free from expectations and from all sense of possession,
with mind and body firmly controlled by the Self…they life in freedom
who have gone beyond the dualities of life..”

And I try to sit in quiet wisdom, but I am a restless anxious being, built with the idea that if I’m not “doing” something, I don’t exist.  So releasing expectations feels like it means not moving with passion.  Passion is what pushes the doing.

Even Krishna chides Arjuna to get out there and fight–live your dharma.  But don’t get into right or wrong, if you live or die, win or lose, just fight for what you think is right.  What if what you fight for seems not to work and you need to turn the corner to keep alive and feel sane?

Here’s where I intend to be today–release duality, expectations and judgments.  Watch the trees for answers–bend, wave, lose the leaves, go deep into roots.  There is no coldness.  I am never alone.