What is it to want something?  Why do we do it?  Is it an illusion that something will make us feel better, or is it real?  Are these urges formulated from childhood-skewed memories, or based on mature analytic experience?

Ha.  Like even analyzing feelings–including desire–would be a fruitful investigation!  As Kinesy Milhoune says, “Who said emotions had to make sense.” 

So bursting into tears is a sign that there is a belief going on, a story being told, beneath the surface.  I can try to tune into that story and make a different choice, see it from another angle, or merely remind myself that it is a story.  Or I can slam the door and obsessively seek another distraction.  I know from experience that method isn’t the best.

Off to the heat of the summer.  Remembering that when it is hot, it is just hot.  When it rains, it is just rain.  HA, and when you spill something all over your papers, it is just a spill.

What a funny thing, this human life is!