4-15-08

Peace beyond all understanding. 

Energy beyond all understanding.

Faith and joy and love beyond all understanding.

How the hell does that work?!  Why is it that I think if I understand
something that I will feel better, or more probably, be able to solve it.  Like I could reverse engineer that my brother
is horrible to his kid, or untangle why my boss can’t in any way praise
anyone.  The mind thinks that it is in
charge, and if it doesn’t grasp what is going on, it cannot function.  It makes sense because it is a linear–need to
see what is happening, human organ.  But
truly after all these years of love, mysticism, faith and miracles, why can’t I
release and surrender to the unknown better and better?

Faith that all will work out no matter if I can see how or
not.  Belief that these aches and pains,
even if they are the “arthrtitis” word, I can live with.  That if I have to do that torture called
“exercise” on a regular basis, I will find joy in it, or allow it to take me to
a place of healing perhaps.

Perhaps if I get familiar with not understanding, I can feel
that deep healing more and more.  That
intrinsic cellular womb-like peace that soothes bones, muscles, even the
mind.  I bow to the will of heaven and
stand for all Good for All.

I bow to the Grace of Heaven, and stand for the Truth of All
Good.

That’s what today will be about.