Anxiety hit me last night.  I took a look at my astrological chart and saw the season coming up.  Big planets hitting my corners, bumping, new waves, the chance to surf or plunge.  Today I choose awareness so that I can ride the ups, the downs the ins, the outs of human life.

After all, it is a rollercoaster I begged for, this life.  I know the truth of easy flow, no matter what season.

But being in it, doing it, watching, awareness and clarity–still I am ambushed by the over-protective, hyper-vigilant, ready for trouble mind of mine.

My true nature IS the water, IS the flow, Is “how” it happens.  I am both the process and the product, the yin and the yang.  I am the doer and the being of me.

Still.  I dive into the heart of the One.  Maybe She is the Flow, but She, He, It, the personal face of the All That Is, comforts me, and I lean on Her shoulder now.  I am washed in Her love, knowing I am always feeling Her warmth, like a child embraced in the heavenly fur coat of Her arms.